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Let's get this awkward introduction over with shall we. I go to university, I'm actually studying a bachelor of Social Science (Psychology) It's pretty good for the most part, but i hate the assignments, and recently i keep getting this huge urge to drop out because its all too much. I feel like I'm living my life all wrong. My family is so structured traditionally it annoys me, they live by routine, sort of ridged. I don't want to live that way, instead i want to have children then get married so they can be apart of the wedding, I want to bring them up differently so they see the world and all the beauty it has to offer, not get caught up in the drama. i want to go and study make-up artistry or maybe photography and go to an art school in England where they think that everything i come up with is wonderful. I have such a strong hunger to travel. And i feel it bubbling up inside of me a lot recently. I want to see Indian and the pyramids, a whale and that race with all the bicycles in France. I want to travel across Europe with Sarah. I don't exactly fit in, i'm far too shy for my own good. Im the girl who texts at parties in the corner and leaves within the hour, while everyone else is getting high and killing brain cells. Im not exactly close to many people anymore. I have a couple of good friends, but i would still love to move somewhere where no body knew my name, maybe the UK or something, where i work in a cute cafe and serve people nice cakes and tea. And in my spare time ride my bicycle around exploring with my camera. Don't get me wrong, I love where i live, the hills are forever flowing and its so peaceful, i live on property so i have many animals and i like to go and sit with the cows in their paddock and just watch them eat grass and communicate without words. Every things so beautiful when its simple.I have itchy feet and i need to do something about it because i feel so despondent at the moment and i need to feel fresh, like when you jump into ice cold water in the middle of winter and for the rest of the day have this passion for living and life in general. I feel strange.